What is LIFE?
What is Life? Many may question this and have the answer in their mind but they just refused to accept this is their life. many will have to fight for things they want like life while suffering with all the illnesses, exams in order to get a certificate, winning a girl's heart in order to be with her, siblings in order to get the toys you want when you are young, etc. All these are part of life, we cannot just get what we want without having to do anything or fight what we wanted. Life is chosen by God to give to our parents and we should be grateful to that. Many may be fighting for the will and chance to live while others may be abusing that life and wanting to lose it for nothing. Someone I know is one of the others that wants to leave this world. I find that it is very stupid to give up a life just for a reason that Life is Meaningless. I dun want to fight for it all over again and repeat the same process. It seems like I was to be blamed for all these evil thoughts in a way. Why are there people who just wants to die? I knew people who has tried doing foolish things before but I guess that is just not their time yet. Many will find life is meaningless when they face the pressure by family or mentality that no one loves them and all. But are these people in the right state of mind you may ask. I am no psychiatrist or anything so I do not know but all I can say is that people who really thinks that life is meaningless is when they have really find no point in living and that even if they die, there is no family or friends who will shed a tear for them. In actual fact, those dead will never know until they managed to survive the ordeal and see worried and sad look on the faces of their loved ones. I find death is the only stupid thing that nobody should resort to. If you manage to survive, it has already left a scar in the heart mentally or physical scars and afterwards, you will regret it for the rest of the life. I just hope that the long talk with my friend can knock some sense into him and changing his mind into doing it. As friends, we should guide him and advise him. But I really do hope that I am able to bring him to know God so that all these thoughts could never had happened. Christians may still have that thought just that they may never really do it cause they know it is wrong to do it. I believe that if you were ever to do it and really leave this world, I will definately hate you for life. I really do hope you'll put that thought away ever again. I know that you are just unable to accept reality of how life is gonna be and how cruel reality is, but there is nothing which cannot be solved, trust me. There may be another new things or good things that is gonna happen to you real soon, you just have to take that chance. There may be just 50% chances that you will not be able to find your the other half, but if you refuse to even take that chance, how would you know if there is really gonna be one? In the end, I may probably be the one who is single. Don;'t give u that slightest chances of living. I have seen my cousin on the verge of leaving this world but he is fighting himself to live still managed to survive all because of that one chance of survival that all of us believed in, Miracle of God. The constant praying and blessing by my church and family members have brought him back to life. Don't lose that chance of living. It is not your time, when it is time then it is time. When that time comes, I will not stop you but it is definately not now, not this time. I was so glad to hear the msg from you this morning. You have made A* and me so worried the whole night. Please continue to at least carry on this way even if it's not for yourself, but for your family or us. We do not want to lose a friend like you, remember that. We are always there for you...
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Dedicated to my close friend....
This post is specially dedicated to my close friend who has just fallen out of love, his first relationship actually. I am sure he knows who I am talking about and I am sure he will read this entry. One of my close friend has been troubled over his relationship recently. And today his relationship with his gf has officially and formally ended the 8-month relationship. You are considered lucky and blessed to actually experience a real relationship and real love now where your first love actually lasted for a period of 8 months. To me, who has been a failure in relationships, has actually already admired and envied you for having such a long relationship as your first. Many pple may not even remember their first relationship as they regard that as their first love. Mine wasn't my first love yet though I've been into really short-term two relationships before. So I haven't even met my first love yet. The first person who can really make me know what love really is. Initially I thought L* could be the one. I was already willing to commit and put all my heart into it when he decided to end it there with me. Sad thing, and initially it was a hard time for me to pull throught that period. But I'm glad I got over it now and I am glad that all my friends were there for me. I believe that time can heal everything. All you need is just time. I know that you are frustated and filled with lots of question marks with her. But I believe she has made clear her stand so it is better for you to just move on. Yes, love can be sweet but it can be bitter too and worst, love can hurt a person really bad. But hey, why not just learn from this mistake and then move on and tell yourself never to repeat this again. It may be hard now, but I believe you will get over it soon. Treat this as a learning experience of a relationship. You had good times with her too right? Though you may not be friends now or you may find it hard now as perhaps all you can think of afterwards is hatred and dislike. That is normal as you may have thought it was your fault and all. Indeed from a 3rd party's point of view, you are. But who doesn't blame themselves for such things initially. I always believe in one thing, I will surely find that better someone soon. Give yourself some time, vent all your frustrations or let it all out, I am sure you'll feel better that way. It is not good to bottle it up. If need, just cry. I am alright with guys crying over relationships cause crying always helps a person feel better. A* and me are pretty worried for you especially A*, think he has never seen you react this way before. Anyway, if you need someone to chill out or talk to, rem A* and me are always there....
* Names are being withheld for confidential purposes as the real parties may have restrictions in naming them here.
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