I feel so lazy to blog these days cause there's not much time left for myself when I reach home. And I haven't been giving reviews for movies or places I went to, etc. Even the Korea holiday, I feel so lazy to upload the photos and blog about it in details these days. I did upload the photos on Facebook though. Think after people started working or work full-time, blogging is so much neglected in people these days. Blogging seemed to be more for students or people who have more free time for themselves. Even when I'm not going out on weekends, I find it out to spend maybe 1 hour to blog these days. I was even comtemplating if I should close my blog. It is a matter of time when I will just do it. Even now, it's raining outside, three colleagues left in my office are so lazy to go out due to the rain, we had to ask colleagues to buy back for us. This is so much expected when there are so little people left in office. I would hope to find some good lunch companion at times. That's why I have time to blog now all because I'm so free now. Have a tender next week but it seemed like I'm not much involved in it or as yet. My colleague I was to work and assist him is on leave today and the other colleague don't seemed to require my help. So I'm back to being free and try to act busy life at work again. My research work are all done last week when I was so busy with other things too. I haven't been attending meeting lately which requires me to take down minutes.

Typing this blog entry now without stopping or browsing other webpages actually gives me the idea to write and rant about things now. So actually this proves that if I gave some time to blog about things happening, I'm able to do it at one go instead of stopping in between then find that I feel so lazy to continue to blog the rest of it which I normally do at home. So the best time to blog is in office hours lunchtime.

I also received a call earlier from the person I did not want to speak to at all ever since that incident. Knowing it was his number calling, I still answered his call expecting the type of questions he will ask. After the last time I attended Bible Study class, we talked about Forgive and Forget. I was just thinking about my situation and him. I should indeed forgive him but they were talking about you may forgive the person but you need not forget about the things that made you actually dislike the person or hate him. So I guess, I should pick up the phone. But knowing the motive of the conversation was to break the ice, bury the hatchet and meet up once again as friends. Am I able to do it all over again and start off as friends? What if he has false hopes again? He kept emphasizing that in order to forgive completely, I should really go out with him once again. Is that a pressure as in testing me whether I did really forgive him completely or rejecting him is actually an act of still having that dislike in him?

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