It is coming to the end of the Year 2011 and I look back on the year. Lots of things happened this year. I started dating again in the 1st half of the year and though things din work out with one of them, I moved on and met another person which eventually getting into a relationship with him. But within half a year, the relationship also ended. I tried snorkelling and went on my first holiday with a dear friend to Bintan. Then I was promoted to Project Executive officially in November. Actually I didn't really achieved much though in between, I did experienced nice memories. My church pal got married this year. Went for my family trip to Australia for the first time. Managed to take the Safety Construction Course for Project Managers and passed it. Christmas is coming again and I feel as if I will be spending Xmas alone this year. My church friends don't seemed to be close with me this year much after my bday celebration. One of them is happily married, the other two are attached so they will have their own activites or friends outside. As for the other gal, she is single like me, but I guess might end up, she have her own plans too. I guess I'm left to spend with the older folks after candlelight service. I've come to realise why I don't have big group of close friends whom i can hang out with together so they will organise Xmas parties and all which I can join and know more people. Sometimes I do feel lonely and asked myself am I really that unfriendly? I never see myself having a partner or special person beside me celebrating special ocassions with me. Especially when I'm well-dressed on Xmas Eve.

Anyway, just few days ago, my best friend, Meiling was discussing with me on planning to go Phuket with me and two other guy friends whom i know initially. We had planned in february. But now plans has to be thrashed and they have to go ahead without me as they have planned to go in mid-January. It's actually the week before CNY and I thought air tickets will have increase prices. Anyway we were both excited as we get to travel on holiday by plane together. And they had asked another guy friend along this time who is a Christian. Too bad I doubt I'll be able to take leave in January as Jan has many holidays and I might have a project on hand which my boss will not let me take leave. I feel bad that I can't join her this time. She has been a good pal to me since primary school so we've known each other for 18 years and it's really not easy to keep in contact with a friend so long. I hope I'll have chance to travel with her by plane elsewhere. Though this time have 4 of us is new for me too. Cause I always travel with family and sometimes travelling with friends are so much better. I haven't tried travelling with my partner too, not sure when I'll have this chance though.