My sister, my dad and I sent my dad to the vet. Before we left, we put her favourite hotdog in her bowl hoping that she'll eat for the last time. But she just laid down there refusing to even lift her head. We were the second to go to see the vet, it was a male doctor. Swizzle would normally shiver or fidget around when she was at the clinic, this time she just laid quietly in the kennel we brought her at. My sister initially wanted to pay extra 50 bucks more to separate her ashes but my dad disallowed so we went for the common cremation aka mass cremation (ashes with other animals). My sister started crying while waiting for our turn. It was Swizzle who made her overcome the fear of dogs. The vet actually said that they would want us to consider if we would want to let her be hospitalised while they do some tests on her and treat her which can prolong her for anoither few more months. But eventually she will still return to the same condition as now. My dad felt that if she is able to live for few more years, he would not mind paying for the treatment and hospitalisation but it could only hold her for few months then might as well end her suffering and pain now (长痛不如短痛) that is what my sister and I felt. We were already prepared to let her go. Seeing her suffering quietly makes us feel even more painful though watching her die peacefully is also a tough process. My sister and I immediately cried as we really cannot bear to let her go though we know this would be her choice and the best choice. The vet brought her to another room and prepared the injection. My sister and I let our tears all out. I was disappointed to see my dad seemed to have felt nothing, no tears no nothing. But he was always the one who took care of her and was the cloest to her. However, I know he must be sad too but he just refused to show it. He always put "let her die", "put her to sleep" on his mouth at times but my sister and I were always the one who stopped him though he used to be joking about it in the past. She was still lying down the same way and position when the vet pierced the needle onto her leg. I have never seen her remain so still and never cry or budge at having injections. I guessed she must be really weak and thought her time is up. In less than 10 seconds, the vet confirmed that she was gone. We just wept and the vet left her in the room with a box of tissues. My sister cut off a bit of her fur to keep in memory of her. I took off her collar to keep it cause I bought for her that new collar after her old collar was bitten by herself. Her left eyes weren't fully closed, we wasn't even sure if she did really slept peacefully. When I went home, my mum had already informed my relatives and all of Swizzle's death. My auntie even called me to send her condolences. Everyone said that it was really a pity to let her die like this. I kept thinking the part when I saw her lying on the operation table without a heartbeat really aches me. Don't worry, I will get over it. I'll just have to get used to her absence. It is really weird that suddenly our house seemed different.

I found her old photos, from the time when she just celebrated her first CNY (when I was in Primary 5) with us till the photos I will post here later (I had my digital camera). Lucky we had took many photos of her and looking at the old photos, really makes me miss the times when she was very young and active. Where she was able to see properly and play ball with us. She was able to udnerstand what was "Ball". When we mention "Ball" she will start looking for it and give us the ball to throw for her to catch. She was rather clueless at times, she couldn't find the ball and all. Then when we come home, she'll jump on us pretty excited welcoming us home. She'll walk around in the living room and sleep outside our room when all of us are inside our rooms and whenever she wakes up, she'll stretch her legs which I find it cute. Took a video down using my old BenQ digital camera so there isn't any sound. I realised I did not take a lot of pics or even a single video of her using my new Pentax camera cause it has sound video recording. Here's her pictures for the last time...
Taken in 2003...



She saw me going to take her photo, she got up walk away and stretched her legs...




Swizzle was playing with me...




Swizzle begging for food, the person left of the video is my sister who was having her breakfast...







The toy that my sister bought for her bf last year or two years back. Their fave dog, I saw it was so cute so deliberately placed it beside her and took this photo.

Taken in 2004...








When she used to sleep leaning against the wall then turn the other way, her ear always becomes like this when she wakes up...very cute







That time, she already had cataract...





She was playing with me...

Taken in 2005...




Taken on my Panasonic X70 camera phone...


Just for those who dunno how Swizzle got her name, she was called Swizzle by the previous owner. They so happened to pass by this chocolate shop in Changi Airport T2. The chocolate shop was called some other name. But they noticed the company name below the shop name as Swizzle Pte Ltd and the logo of the company was a French Poodle thus they decided to give her that name. We had wanted to change her name when she came to our family but in the end, we sticked to that name cause she was so used to it. Because responding to "Ball", she responds (her head will be up when she's asleep or when she is sitting her ear will move) to words like "Mum-mum" which means food in Hokkien and "Gai-gai" or "Go down" which means taking a walk downstairs. She is like a baby, she understands what we are talking. She also responds to "Dinner" and "Come back". When she was younger, she always barks and runs to the door whenever she hear footsteps or voices outside. I really missed the days when she was younger. But good times always pass. Old age always comes and life and death are all parts and parcels of life. That is why keeping a pet is always a fun but tiring process but we often have to face the time when the pet will leave our family for good....

And whom have taken with Swizzle before...


My family 2004 CNY...





My only friend so far who has taken photos with Swizzle before...In 2003, her 20th birthday

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